… Bing Bing …
Bing, my message that night was not meant to be of a happy note… haiz… i mean i onli kept in contact with 4 people out of 40, and 2 were from 2/2… u see how lousy i am? I felt i have been putting in too much effort with cc, but then in the end, i cannot feel it reciprocating. Isn’t it sad? I felt very bad cos pple usually bring with them their last 2 years of sch, but i did not… even now, when i msg cc, i also cant feel the warmth… is it really me that with the problem?? we were such good frenz… then…
August 25th, 2005 at 11:15 pm
Deares ling,
sorry I misinterpreted your sms. Stop blaming yourself. Sometimes it’s not you but changes in circumstances and/or the other party that has resulted in this current situation. You are the best fren one can have so it’s not you, that I can guarantee. Give cc some time, maybe cc is too busy to notice these so subtle changes… pls dun be so upset, things will always work out, as you always encourage me. =]
September 14th, 2005 at 11:17 pm
ah ling..
u nvr expect that i will be reading ur blogs rite? nono.. u r wrong… though i may not have the time to meet up wif frens, i do read the blogs to keep myself updated..
on reading this one, i felt veri sad.. for the both of you n cc.. if i m not wrong, cc=chan chan, rite? the sweet name u always called mi rite?
yes.. we were so good frens then.. frankly speaking, i dun realli like the last 2 yrs of my sch.. i rem something unhapi happened.. exactly wat, i have chosen not to recall.. it was the 1/2, 2/2 times tat i loved the most.. the times we had while doing proj at libing’s hse, at ur hse..
i m like tat, i avoid tokking abt the things that make mi unhapi, n maybe tat’s y, there always seem to have a missing link btw our frenship..
i am so sorry if u have feel that i m not reciporating ur frenship..
but i always thot of u as a good fren, when u need mi, i will be there.. but u got to let mi know… Gd frens may not see each other for a long time, but will always hold each other close to the heart rite?
i am sorry if u think tat i din go out wif u is not reciporating ur frenship.. I know i have been too caught up wif work, tuitions..tat’s y i m like not making any social contacts.. i apologise for that but let my clear the tons of debts on my butt first b4 i can actualli have the time to sit down n watch the world go by at the cafe.. I am not not apologetic of that onli to u, but alot of my close frens too.. but sometimes i am so busy that i do not have time for myself and family.. so i cant possible be sitting at the cafe ya? i know u r a realli good fren, n i do enjoy the times we get together, but somehow i always felt tat i m some sort being excluded out of ur very good frens circle.. last time i used to feel y u could treat the others so well but not mi.. maybe its something wrong that i have done, or mayb i don deserved to be treated more preferential by u.. i felt unfair,hurt n upset..but as time goes by, i juz let things be, n dun tink or tok abt it already.. u have been a good fren to mi when we were in sec 1-2. i still rem the times when u n feng got into a quarrel, n i told u not to give up a frenship juz like tat…i duno why sec3-4 things changed.. maybe we were young and ignorant then.. mayb i wasnt too sensitive then..
u may find tat i m not writng too coherently.. coz i m quite upset abt how u have felt and i juz type wat i feel..i thought there are alot of things tat we din tok to each other abt rite? i duno u will get upset or angry when u c my comment or not.. but i need to let u know, i din not change.. i am still the same person u know..still as frank.. still as who i m..hmm.. call mi lah.. even if i m not free to go out, i am still free to ans calls in the nite ya? n i dun sleep early.. hehe