Pak Ling’s Blog

THIS is the name of Yung Yung’s child… Wah… so fast… Still remember the incident in primary (some little gal issue), and it has been so many years. I think we were never in the same class, or only 1 year? But I marvelled at how long we have been in contact. Last saw her in June 2004, and well, now she has given birth. We may not be constantly in touch, but I am glad dat she still remembers me as a friend, and updating me… she’s not someone who wrote a lot in letters, but she makes an effort to keep a friendship going.

Getting the news from these friends always bring with me a feeling of loss, and bitter-sweet. It’s like a past which I do not know how to take into the future…

I am getting hooked on to the Korean show… Blame the person who introduced this show to me… Well, its a really NiCe show, similar to the "ai4 shang4 nv2 zhu3 bo1" which I watched back in Germany (VCD, of course!) Well, I wasn’t really involved in the Korean series business back then, just out of boredom and also ‘cos its highly recommended. I watched the series. It was good! But i guess that was not too popular in singapore then!

Anyway… the show "Stairways to heavens" really made my nights sleepless. I kept thinking about the little girl, the unfairness, and also the "hardship" she suffers under a new tyrannt. Yet, she remains kind-hearted, and pure. Knowing the injustice she suffers, she remains true to her family. Her only concerns are others… Anyway, my mum refuses to watch the show, since she said she cant take it, and wont be able to sleep after that…. ^_^

Haha… watching too much Korean shows. But I think these are really the traits that attracted me. The human touch, the kindness….

Lucky this show was not presented to me in VCD form… or else, I will spend 1 whole day (non-stop) watching them…. haha

Bing, my message that night was not meant to be of a happy note… haiz… i mean i onli kept in contact with 4 people out of 40, and 2 were from 2/2… u see how lousy i am? I felt i have been putting in too much effort with cc, but then in the end, i cannot feel it reciprocating. Isn’t it sad? I felt very bad cos pple usually bring with them their last 2 years of sch, but i did not… even now, when i msg cc, i also cant feel the warmth… is it really me that with the problem?? we were such good frenz… then…

Finally managed to meet up LB for a meeting to celebrate her b-dae… hee… we were supposed to meet at 11am in town, but as usual, I was late.. It has been a long time since we last sang, and well, we were "suaku" and it’s our first visit to K-box. Dunnoe if we were all tired of work, and after working for a while, we have sort of lost a little bit of energy… din really sing as much as the previous time…

But i was quite happy when she told me that she is jealous by my s.f… well well, must say again, Lb will always be dear to me… ghee… hope tat after we can meet up more often after…. (you know….) *_*

Yesterday had a sharing about the China trip in June. It was really a time of reflection for me, after around 2 months of bumping around here and there…

Got a letter from ED. The letter was very simple, no elaborated words and phrases. But it was very real, very sincere. There was not much content, except that he missed us, all 3 of us (each of us, SJ LZ and I) received our own separate letter!

… ED was the quietest amongst the 3 of thm. thoughout the 2 hours, his back/ side was facing us. Before we realised it, he was GONE! for a good half hour, and suddenly re-appeared sweating, with bunches of fruits… when we were being shown around the village, they were so sincere, plucking mangoes + some fruits (well, never see b4, but tasted quite nice though!) for us to eat along the way (haha, I was enjoying the freedom of throwing the skin/ rubbish as I was walking and eating!! ^_^) What else! we were treated to self-made "honey tea"… Eventhough they have forgotten to time to meet, they actually waited for us at the meeting place a full 3 hours just to make sure that they can see us off…. As I am writing now, the memories flooded back. What they have may not be much, but they gave what they have!… the modern society making me all too "self-centred", I was really touched by the warmthe that they displayed, and the sincerity in their every word and action…

… when was the time they your life actually touched some others? Loved the song "Making a difference", by this, I dont mean that I am really that great, to influence and change people n circumstances. But, when I as talking to ah S, tears actually fell from my eyes. He was relating to us how the previous team, who stayed with them for a week, actually changed their lives. They promised to quit smoking, drinking and well, gambling too! I was touched by how the previous team changed their lives. How is it really possible that Jesus commands us to touch other people with our life??!! It is possible, but the life must be that of genuine and a life that is willing to let the love flows out.

… despite all things, I think we are really fortunate. Apart from the the comfort and entertainment, we were able to study. The village was half-way up the hill, and there was only 1 primary school. They will have to go to a nearby town for higher education. To go down the hills require dangerous (esp rainy days) journeys. Apart from these, they were needed for the family to do the manual works (guys and gals alike!!) They were so simple and pure… In schools, on the streets, there were so many people spreading the gospel. Many have heard it time and again. The gospel was, however, foreign to them, and valuable to them. Its like they are just believing in simple but great faith! Their hearts are soft. I cannot possibly just go on my "daily routines" without the thought ofwhat should I do each day to make my day worthwhile… can I?…

Indeed, its not that our trip to China has blessed them, instead, I was greatly blessed by them! There are so much to learn from them. Having read the letter again and again, I am really touched by the genuinity in the feelings, which is so lacking in today’s world…